blabble #9

I'm done

On the eve of christmas

Happy boxing day to my dear readers :)

So was your christmas well spent?


For the past 17 years of my life, christmas eve has always been a family occasion. It was a little different this year because I finally experienced counting down for the very 1st time and lets just say it wasn't a very decent experience. This years christmas eve was filled with a mixture of tears, jams, arguements and letdowns. Still, it wasn't all bad. I also had my fair share of shopping joy and people around me showing me how much they love me :)


Imagine being in the midst of the crowd, alone when the clock struck 12. The phone lines failed me for a good 30minutes. So there I was, trying to make calls while the crowd around me were cheering and just spraying those horrible stuff. I hated the spraying, the shouting, the crowd and the partying.

I guess after going through that, the most normal thing to do when I saw a familiar, comforting face was just to breakdown and cry.Yes, I was crying because I think everything was just too overwhelming, too much for me to handle. wtf

When I've finally calmed down enough to hit the clubs, I decided that the whole overcrowding partying thing really wasn't my thing and I just wanted to go somewhere and eat.wtf

For the very first time in my life, I vented my anger at a total stranger. Trust me, she totally deserved it. I mean if you can just blow at a total stranger they must have been really horrible. No? Not to mention that it was on christmas itself. The season of joy and love.wtf


I guess this post pretty much sums up my christmas eve. Gotta go because JunHin just texted me, telling me YongSern's asking me to go yumcha. Triple wtf.

With expectations comes disappointment.

I haven't been writing lately, keeping most of the things to myself. It just feels good to be able to have the time to just sit down and pour my heart out again.

I have always thought that it is human nature to expect and I still do. I believe that sometimes we just can't stop ourselves from expecting. Funny how I'm blogging about this during my favourite season of the year. Maybe because it has always been such a joyful season, my expectations seem to just be growing year by year. I suppose its not a bad thing especially if all goes well but what if it doesn't?

Won't it be extremely depressing to have to go through disappointment, fits and tears this christmas season?

Christmas has always been a season of giving and receiving. I guess if you don't have a good balance of both, you'll never be able to fully feel the christmas spirit. I think this year, I should learn how to give.

After all, it isn't always about receiving. Still, how does it feel to keep giving and not receive? I wonder.

I can't turn back time and I really hate that feeling of frustration more than anything else in the world when I look at the clock and realised how much time is wasted not because of me but because of somebody elses mistake.

White

Make a wild guess, where have I been for the past week? :)

Found

I haven't blogged for 10days and nobody misses me! ):


Using the hotel's comp.
Will be heading home today. :)
xx

Hear em bells jingle

Hello my dear readers,

Have you started doing your christmas shopping?

I haven't.

So who wants to do their christmas shopping with me?!

Funny how I usually shop for christmas at least a month earlier. Maybe its the work schedule. After all, I never had a 10-6 job during the weekdays and just the mere thought of hitting the overcrowded malls on the weekends is exhausting.

My fav guys are back from langkawi:)

Can't wait to meet them tonight!

Goodbye my dear readers!

xx

Love

I'll be heading up to Genting with YongSern. After all, its been awhile since we spent time together :)